'Purification' of Desire
December 2017
(Canción del Adiós 1)
A mist built by artificial fireflies
is unwinding
around his fragile presence,
as an embodied quivering
near an unreachably free Seagull 2,
first – in flights aerial,
second – in hoverings embraced.
I cannot recall
the pattern of musical craving,
but I do feel his chest,
his vertical radiation
of mildness, of
holistically abundant Otherness,
in each step over ground,
in each winged spatial stroke.
I wake up between a dream
and a reverie, embracing him,
perfectly,
– like an unhealthy reality,
the two of us,
perfusing into something circular,
few giros,
or other typological complexity;
through whirling
on my toes,
I’m losing my balance
while still holding the trembling axis,
– I feel nothing else but
а vertiginous edge
before the Fall, and yearning
– ‘purified’ of any erotic stain –
towards his silent innerness,
his intense belonging,
his dark art of spacelessness.
I open my eyes,
not believing to gravity,
and I am flowing into
his look with
thunderous silences,
into his lips,
falling,
as an autumn leaf
through winds of snow.
I am growing
– breaking clouds, piercing soil,
as a rare herb, fed by
his spiritual warmth.
‘Amor-pasión, vértigo y asombro’ 3:
all Trias’s leaders to the Border
– possible – to be momentary experienced,
through the iron butterflies
under my chest,
through his spherical beams,
burnt by a humble gracefulness.
The new-born
windows inside my heart
are keeping my body
upright – organically,
monumentally,
even in the nocturnal reverie,
even in the upcoming daybreak,
when I remain
his short-lived tanda,
his flawless tango:
his spiritual,
second
Lover.
26.11.2017
Ljubljana
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1. Buesa, J., and Guarany, H. Interpreter: Hidalgo, Ginamaria. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FsaS8GAM-6I
2. Bach, R., 2006 (1970): Jonathan Livingston Seagull. Scribner, New York.
3. Trías, E., 2012: La Filosofía del Límite. https://www.youtube.com/watch? v=VJ7thZnVHcE&t=11s
Viktorija Bogdanova
